27/6/07

i have a lot of emotions runnnig through me now as i recall the past few days..i felt mostly fatigue.. eyes are feeling dry and stinging..last sat nite, after i reach home abt 1am+, i was informed, someone i knew all my life has left me..

ok...so i told myself, this is something that i have mentally prepared for..but sometimes one does not know oneself..as i saw the body lying there emotionless, lifeless, not moving, then reality kicks in..yes..facts are sad indeed..

sometimes humans like to deceive themselves..i think i do too..at times. i'd like to think of him being here forever..that his spirit is watching all over us.. it takes a while to getting used to the fact that i will not see him, or talk to him, or trying to catch what he says as he converse in dialect..ever again..forever, infinity..not gonna happen no matter how bad or hard i want it to be..but i will try..and i will cope..

goodbye..my dearest grandpa...no matter where u are, i hope u will be happy...and i know u be watching over all of us...from above..