yes yes yes yes

yes yes..i just checked the date of my last post..its nov 2007.. now its nov 2008.. abt a year since i really sit down and spend time to write something. many a times i really want to write..but in the end did not manage to do it most of the time..

many things have happen in the past 1 yr..ive gotten married, got my own house..living with my darling wife.. work has been stressful (wats new)..but still manage to produce some good results at year end..and yes..we finally went to tour europe (italy, france, switzerland)..

this 2 days were not exactly the best days of the years..things got a little rough..and im trying my best to deal wtih it. apart from the loss of a business that i am working on..im still trying to cope and doing wat i can to replace that business from other sources.

temper got better of me today..and i finally saw red..it was bad, but i am still typing..i kinda regret wat i did..and of course, regret something that i should have done but didnt.. sometimes u just feel that at that very moment, you need some actions to let off the anger and steam inside.. otherwise you feel like wana explode..this is how i felt today anyway..

i thought im pretty cool with controlling temper..but wat the fuck..im wrong.. i still cant increase my boiling point...of all the wrong things i did..the worst was to hurt someone so close to you..that was really unintentional...haiz.. having said that, im really not sure how to turn things right. sometimes the harder you try, the worst it becomes..

anyway wat i really want to say is, i regret wat i did..i should have control my temper.. and i should have done wat i should...and the thing is...i am really sorry.